I recently lost my job. I think it's the best thing that could have happened for me.
Since I was 16 years old I have been working as a server/bartender in the food service industry. As you can imagine as a young person this came with a multitude of perks and pits.
I learned the value of work ethic, of hustle and grind, of “leaving your shit at the door”, of being “in the weeds,” and I heavily adopted the old adage “fake it till you make it.” All of this has served me well, and yet, it all feels like a pair of pants that I’ve outgrown.
As I’ve gotten older and wiser, gained trust in my intuition, and learned to set boundaries and advocate for myself– it’s become harder and harder to ignore this feeling.
I no longer desire to fake it until I make it but instead wish to FEEL it all. I no longer wish to “leave my shit at the door”, but instead desire to lead from where I’m at, to use my truth as a tool to connect with others who need support, too. And though I still enjoy hard work and hustle, and watching the fruits of my labor grow, I no longer wish to feel the anxiety and overwhelm of being “in the weeds.”
Instead, I wish to mindfully fill my time with work that feeds my soul, outings with friends, and days in with books. I wish to honor my body, mind, and spirit. I want to make money and have the time, energy, bandwidth, and relationships to actually enjoy my money!
And so begins my journey as a full-time yoga teacher!!
It's not my first attempt, but my dear friend Jen Holland has reminded me many times, "There is no such thing as failure, only feedback."